My Cell Phone

Well, I really wanted to write this blog, but now i'm just sitting here...staring at a blank screen. I am one of those people that really has be either inspired or have a really good topic to start writing. I am not a person who can just sat down and write whatever, whenever. But, I do have a subject....my cell phone. Or my non-existent, deactivated cell phone.


See what happened was I was yesterday, outside, shoveling snow (one of the many reasons I HATE SNOW), trying to get my car out to go to work. I shoveled, shoveled, got in tried to get out, got back out and shoveled some more. Little did I know, my cell phone fell out of my pocket and into the snow. I finally got out and I jumped in my car and drove off. About half way to Yakira's house, I needed to call Jaspin and tell her i'd be a few minutes late. I couldn't find my phone...anywhere. So I picked up the kids and then dropped them off and ran back to get my phone, which I thought i'd left upstairs in my room. I hadn't. So, I ran back out and looked in the snow...no such luck there either. So, I had to get back to work.


About 4 hours later, I finally made it back to my house. I searched high and low for it in my house and all through the snow. I finally had about given up when my mom emailed me. She had called my cell phone and a young girl had answered. I was LIVID. Especially since I kinda think I know who took it, at least the house they live in. Anyways, I was upset...I shed a couple of tears...mainly because I really don't have the money to buy a new one. Also because I felt violated cuz someone had taken it without at least trying to give it up and finally because, well, I am attached to my phone.


And after yesterday, I've realized that I am way too attached. This break from my phone is a good thing. I think that sometimes we do get too attached to objects. And, God wants to sometimes show us how attached we are to it...so He sees if we can function without it...and it's been a tough thing, there has been in the past 18 hours about 6 times when I was about to pick up my phone when I realized I didn't have one.


Anyways, now the perspective and the humbled part. I can honestly say, God humbles me on a daily basis. I get mad about something and God shows me the injustices of another person. I get upset about something and God shows me how lucky I really have it. And well, He did it again this morning. See, I woke up in a bad mood. I didn't get home from babysitting till 1:15 (thank goodness for opprotunites for extra cash!) so I was really tired when I woke up. I was also still a little upset from yesterday so I woke up not wanting to do anything. It's Sunday, though, and I know that I should go to church, so i'm getting ready but I decided to sign on to the internet and check my emails. Lo and Behold, there is Kia. And she says, my lil brother died. Thats it...no explanation, nothing else...just my lil brother died. She has twin brothers, I think they are between 6-8 years old. And apparently in the past 24-48 hours, one of them had died. She hadn't been living with her mom for very long (she liked living with her grandmother a lot more) and I remember about a month ago asking her if she was okay living with her mom, she said "well, yeah but only because I get to see my brothers everyday. " See, I went to pick up my phone to call her, and it wasn't there. And I didnt think, dang it...i wish I had my phone, I thought, I am so selfish and stupid. See, here I am crying about a phone...and someone very close to me has lost a loved one...not just any loved one, her brother.


And, I am humbled. And, I am upset. I am heartbroken for her. And, I realize that things could be a lot worse. And, I thank God that I lost my cell phone so I could realize my attachement to it and realize that there are a lot more important things in life than objects. I thank God that I still have my family. I thank God that I am still able to talk to them through the internet.


Please pray for Kia. Here is a picture of her. She is absolutely beautiful and her heart matches her smile. She, like many of my kids, has been through so much in her short 13 years of life...pray for her to cling to God in this time and pray for her family.